I have only truly liked only one guy in my whole life. The feelings where if we would have gone out I would have fallen head over heels for him. But I was to scared and still figuring out myself to ever act on it and always let stupid guys that would have treated me like shit, get my attention. In the end this guy ended up with his current girlfriend, which she’s truly amazing for him and they are perfect. I’m so happy for them but no matter what I will have to live with the idea that something could have happened.
What I’m trying to say is that don’t let a chances and pointless distractions get in your way. The worst that could you could have the truth and move on or something great could happen.
Bitter sweet moment of life
Sitting here crying since this will be my last New Years with my parents. 18 amazing New Years and this is the last one. Like I can come home for new Years next year but I mean New Years in New York or Oregon, that’s not even a question.
So much truth.
People ask me what I’m doing this Christmas break and i’m all like “SLEEPING!EATING!SLEEPING!EATING!SLEEPING!EATING!SLEEPING!
Me and one of my closest friends in the world Charlotte-She brought me flowers after my show, isn’t she amazing.
Im going through my papers and I found this page that I printed out two years ago about where I wanted to go to college. Anyway, it’s weird that I’m actually going to New York for two years and than I’m going to Europe to finish the rest of my school and London is one of those places that I want to finish my school at……DREAMS DO COME TRUE.
Okay here’s the thing about being Geida. Guys will never like me or they will see me as a friend. I’m seriously so annoyed, like is there something wrong with, like seriously is it me.
Like I would like to know the feeling of someone liking me and. I would like the feeling of knowing that one I like someone they like me back. I would like to know the feeling of just being with someone.
I can’t even do this anymore that’s why I never open myself up to anyone because I always seems to get hurt in return always.
Had the best night with everyone. We all got along and laughed and had fun. It was amazing to actually sit around with a group of people that you have things in common with and just talk and spend hours with. The kind of fun that doesn’t require us to get drunk or do stupid things to have fun. Just simple fun you know, eating, playing FIFA 12, making fun of each other and watching movies.
When two years ago I decided that I wanted to go to New York for College, it seemed like a dream but now its coming true… During this time next year I will be in New York. This just proves that whatever you set your mind to you can get it done and its a good thing for me to have learned because I know that know I can make my other dream a reality.
First day of school
Today in school I saw this really attractive guy that looked European(to me), in the student center and I wanted to stop buy and say hi but had to go do something else. So I was like I will come back and say hi to this good looking man and when I came back he wasn’t there….So now it will drive me crazy till I find him again and when I do I will say hi
Picture of me taken by Petra. New icon picture.
So I’m talking to a representative of the Art Institute and they told me that they don’t really have a certain GPA that they require for their students and this has made me so happy. This means my grades will not hold me back like I thought they would, don’t get me wrong I don’t have a bad GPA its just a really close one to a 3.0. Anyway my plans to move to New York after college are still a live 
